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I have never been one to point fingers without first pointing those same fingers right back at myself. I'm no angel. But even as an outlaw, I have always maintained some level of moral values and a code of ethics which I lived by. Unlike the new breed of criminals who would eat their own Young if given half the chance. Yes, I have a deep seated mental hangup about harming innocent people. Does that seem like a contradiction because of my years in prison? Have I ever crossed that line myself ... sure. But this only happened a few times in my youth. When I crossed those lines it was out of naive stupidity and not out of just being an evil piece of shit. There is a difference. There are a couple things I did as a kid, that I would give anything in this world to take back, if I could. But that isn't reality. I have to look upon those actions I committed as a very costly learning experience and hope that in turn, I have learned to be a better human being. I have never had a good or loving relationship with my parents. Though I was never close to my only sibling, Tammy, who passed away in August of 2005 of a presciption drug overdose. I still loved Tammy and I always knew that she admired me for my musical talent. We were never real close due to the abuse and constant slaps to the head I suffered at the hands of our father over her. Tammy could do no wrong in his eyes and I was treated like the redheaded stepchild. I never blamed my sister for the mistreatment that I endured because she was only a little girl and she was not responsible for the way our father treated me my whole life. It's for these reasons that the number one thing I can point to, with the Native Americans old lifeways, that I absolutely love and admire the most is their concept of "My People". It's not the me, myself, and I mentality. It's not give me, give me, take, take. It's not about just you. You are not the center of the universe. I've been forced into an exsistence with the ME generation. What a nightmare it's been. I'm waiting to be awakened and set free. Back when the Native Americans owned and ruled this land, the land that was stolen from them or they were cheated out of, they had a code of honor and pride I deeply respect. It was always "My People". There was no room for human selfishness. The men who held the most honor and status among the tribe where the ones who gave the most to the people. That's why the chiefs and the most important people were usually the poorest. In return the people honored them and gave them the upmost respect and even their loyalty most of the time. These people valued the opinions of the leaders. You sure in the hell don't get that from the people for our government officials today. Love One Another. . . no, that is not original "Christian" terminology. |
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"The ant is knowing and wise;
but he doesn't know enough to take a vacation"
Clarence Day, 1920
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